a question - and only one photo? (CHEAP.) [Dec, 28th 2:31pm] birls [aubergine_pilot] So of late I've become completely disgusted with how I've let my body head towards falling apart in the past few months. Not gonna go into detail except to say that I know I'm never going to be able to narrow my hips down like they should be if my mind and body were to match, but I'm okay with ending up with a body like that 2D boy in my icon up there... Basically, what exercises are, in y'all's opinion, best for building up the shoulder and arm muscles of a human body with no Y chromosome in sight? I know what to do to get myself looking "right" everywhere else, I've done it in the past, but I can't seem to build muscle there. Now with that mess out of the way... ( This was my Christmas Eve. Shortly after this was taken my mother started asking me why I 'always dress like a man'.... ) Yes, I was drinking that coffee in front of me in an effort to sober up. (Spoiler: IT DIDN'T WORK!) Re-dyed my hair two days ago, so it looks much better now, but I've got no photos yet. 2  :   post comment

happy holidaze [Dec, 27th 1:16pm] birls [nessa_kaaos] [ mood | sick ] [ music | the ramones-merry christmas (i don't wanna fight tonight) ] Just saying Hi and wishing you all well, I think. I have a migraine, I'm off. xoxo post comment

the customer is always right? [Dec, 27th 3:16am] birls [0hseptember] at work I walked by a group of four young boys and heard one utter to the group "shemale" followed by shushed laughter from the other three. uuuuuuhg... I hate the service industry, taking it up the bum because they bought a cheeseburger is LAME. I think in this case the customer is quite wrong. Have any of you experienced biting your tongue in the work place, either to customers or coworkers? How far is too far as far as rude comments and insults go from customers, and do you think some things are tolerated more than others (such as racist comments to homo/trans phobic comments, for example)? Is it just as wrong to insult a service workers intelligence as their sexuality/creed/race/gender...etc. Just something I thought might make for an interesting discussion as I'm sure many of you have been in a service industry of some kind at some point. I hope you all had a great Christmas, for those who celebrated! :D Ray 8  :   post comment

Greetings [Dec, 26th 11:08pm] birls [drunkboi1232] I havent post on here in idk when. Its been awhile, so I thought I would recap. Im Lee. Im 25 and I live in phoenix. Majoring in Education. I play some mean wheelchair basketball and enjoy running off the curb with my chair and landing face down in the bushes. I have a new pic as well as a link for my newly published book. Hope everyone had a good holiday.( A few.... ) EDIT: Stupid lj-cut wont work! 1  :   post comment

Intro [Dec, 26th 3:49pm] birls [iamapony] Hi! Uhh, I'm new. I was on LJ for a long time but left... a few years ago, I guess? And I basically rejoined to watch this community. My name is Xue and I live in Boston. I don't think I look particularly androgynous, but I feel much more comfortable in less feminine digs. ( Read more ) 10  :   post comment

[Dec, 25th 8:16pm] birls [small_sails] Hey birls! If you remember a few months ago I was asking for submissions for this compilation. Well, it's finally done, and it's a free download so go get 'em! Queer as Folk-Pop Vol. 1! Queer as Folk-Pop is a delicious buffet of singalongable queerfagdykebutchfemme&tranny-centric lovejams for the pansy pop-addict in all of us. Because don't tell me you're not sick of the same old compulsive heteroboticism harshing your tunebox. This project aims to communicate to audiences of DIY folk/pop/whatever music that we're here, we're queer, and we dig handclaps. QAFP is an ongoing project, so please send submissions to queerasfolkpop@gmail.com. It's a great way to get some headphone-play for your hot mess of a music project, and contribute to queer visibility in the nebulous DIY music scene too. There are no guidelines regarding the form or content of submissions. It doesn't have to be a new or exclusive song; it can even be a cover. The options include everything under/over the rainbow, so use your imagination. Let's pitch in to make something that sissies and spinsters alike can sing, snap, stomp and swoon along to for ages to come. Queer Lovejams for the Win, Meagan aka Wisdom Tooth 15  :   post comment

[Dec, 23rd 2:45am] birls [murderfix] I've been bored recently. I'm visiting family in Ohio and I'm dying. So, I've been spending lots of time taking pictures of myself and veggie out.Plus, today I had a shitty day so I was trying to cheer myself up.. My best friend is pissed at me because her best friend and I have been talking. It's a mess. She doesn't want anything happening between us. I've tried to tell her that we are adults and that we can do what we want.. but at this point she's threatening to kick me out.. I am NOT enjoying the cold. Eli. 21 in march. Pre everything ( plus a few more. ) 5  :   post comment

roll call! [Dec, 23rd 4:40pm] birls [artlessthan3] Yet another ridiculous photo of me pulling a stupid face but what can you do Any queers from Brisbane, australia wanna hang out and maybe be friends? 4  :   post comment

Just some thoughts. [Dec, 22nd 2:22am] birls [without_pith] Yo. I'm Rebecca. I introduced myself once ages ago but I never posted here after that, though I occasionally comment. I never thought I had anything to say or bring to the proverbial table. Then I wrote this journal entry and I was like, "Hey." So anyway this is my first non-introductory post. Tonight, my girlfriend asked me if I had ever considered a sex change. This partially excited me because I feel like in most places where I work or live, it is a taboo subject, and I really just want to be able to talk about it freely and openly, like we'd discuss what we want for lunch or what we think about this book or movie. Any gender stuff at all, whether or not the discussion involves transsexuality, is so interesting to me--yet for some reason a lot of people willingly block transsexuality out of it. Anyway, so I was just sitting here being awake and on the Internets and pondering this and being like, "Why not use this as an opportunity to ramble about myself in a public sphere? It's fun!" I have indeed been in periods where I heavily contemplate the state of my femaleness, or lackthereof, or total differentness, and whether that is "male" and whether I am unhappy with anything about my femaleness, or whether I am desiring of physical maleness. I even picked a male name out for myself in the possible event that I concluded a sex- and gender-change is "for me." Definitely, there is a maleness to my personality and my sexuality. Although I tried to deny and to push it toward the back of my consciousness in early childhood, and only timidly and privately addressed it throughout my adolescence, having it manifest many times more frequently and unwittingly through outlandish, rebellious, and overtly sexual ways (one could argue it was a sort of secondary "male adolescence" I guess), when I began reading about gender in my early 20s (feels weird to say that, haha, since I'm still technically IN my early 20s...), I became excited and, soon, liberated by coming to see the various ways one can experience and express their gender and sex. It is not so set in stone, so ~binary~. It is fluid, amorphous, many things, a spectrum. It's okay to be female and male at the same time, in varying degrees and intensity. This doesn't have to be a conflict. It can be a marriage. 15  :   post comment

What's a fella to do. ?!? [Dec, 21st 10:16pm] birls [junkie_fm] Let me do a total re-introduction. Nat 22, gender chopp`d & screwed. Have you ever been caught in a situation that seems like its impossible to tell or even express? I have this amazing girlfriend and its been close too about 2 months with us, and the first month we were together she went home for Thanksgiving break, and that was hard and now she back home with her family again 'till the 4th of January. My bday is on the 30th & our 2 months is on the 23rd and you know Christmas of 'course. Its been weird w/o her by my side ... Enough on that note. I have been having these thoughts about transiting for a long time at that and I brought it up to her and she was very supportive during the conversation but she said to me that she doesn't believe she could ever see me as a MAN. I have my own definition of a man, & that is a "MAN" isn't defined by whats between his legs - all the FTM's I know have the strongest mental state I have ever come in contact with.  I feel like my mental sate has overcome the female mind that I have, a brain is powerful, like a sponge . I want to transition one day but the mental state is a journey that I have to go through before any testosterone hits my body.            post comment

[Dec, 21st 12:34pm] birls [craziiboutliv92] Hey this is probably not allowed here but I thought I'd give it a try any way but Im starting this blog about my everyday life and I kind of need people to actually read this thing so im doing the advertising thing. You can delete this post if this is not allowed, but i talk about pretty much everything so don't be afraid to check it out. Here's the link http://moswaggz.blogspot.com/ 1  :   post comment

Los Angelino/a? Want to protest Ugandan bill against LGBT people? [Dec, 20th 1:41am] birls [lewistheclark] Live in or near Hollywood? Want to protest criminalization of homosexuality, specifically the murderous Ugandan bill against LGBT people? Well, it's happening TUESDAY, the 22nd! cliiiick http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=211085097067 From the event coordinator: Date: Tuesday, December 22, 2009 Time: 10:00am - 1:00pm Location: 7095 Hollywood Blvd. Los Angeles, CA "The Ugandan government has proposed a bill entitled the "Anti-Homosexuality" bill. If this bill is passed, it would mean the legalization of genocide against lgbt people in Uganda. "The protest is located outside of the L.A Honorary Consul to Uganda's office. His name is Matthew Crouch. After repeatedly calling and emailing his office he has still failed to provide the public with a statement regarding his stance on the bill. This failure to act on such a serious issue is reason enough to protest outside of his office." post comment

My introduction, if you please [Dec, 20th 2:52am] birls [planetjoanna] [ music | "Guilty As Charged" by Dewey Cox ] My name is Joanna, 31 years old, and I've been a member of this community for a few years now, though I have never posted before. I honestly couldn't tell you what I am. I guess I've always been confused and feel as though I am ever fated to be so. I have always found myself sexually attracted to men, but I have had crushes on a few females before. However, I can never quite imagine myself with a woman sexually. I have always been thought of by other people, as a first impression, a lesbian, as I have never been girly in my life, much to the dismay of my mother. It's just not a part of my being I suppose. I've always felt as though I'm really a guy. And when I say that I'm a gay man trapped in a woman's body, I'm not joking. However, I don't think of changing myself into one either...I just wish I had been born one. Sometimes though, and I mean sometimes, I don't mind being a woman. I suppose this isn't much of an introduction. I feel as though I'm not really saying what I mean to say here. I guess I could end this in saying that I truly do identify with those of you on here. I am hear, I am confused, and today...it's not so bad. Thank you! 5  :   post comment

TIPS FOR A HAPPY HOLIDAY [Dec, 18th 9:12pm] bi_girls [nyabn] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | 'Silver Bells' from Christmas with The Brady Bunch ] ( If you are gay, lesbian, bisexual, fluid, pansexual, queer-identified, transgender, genderqueer . . . ) post comment

[Dec, 18th 8:32pm] birls [theseaoryou] haircut. hell yes. 16  :   post comment

When the sun is up... [Dec, 17th 4:21pm] birls [purinmo] I feel empowered when the sun is up. Nothing can get me down. I am strong, confident, awesome. I have amazing hair, awesome friends, a great imagination and personality. I may not know what I want to do with my life as a whole, but I am creative and have several ideas on what I CAN do. When the sun is down, I feel listless and depressed. I think to myself, "Why am I doing all this? Everybody hates me now". I get very lonely. Give me some hot cider and someone to keep me company, or someone to talk to, and I generally spring right back up and remember that it's not so bad, really. Thank you Winter, for taking and providing, but still being generally lovely. You are a moodswung mistress and I love you. I have Before and After photos! I absolutely LOVE B&A pics, so if you guys have links to some yourself, I would love to see. c: ( pics under cut ) 20  :   post comment

My girlfriend is a transguy. [Dec, 16th 6:29pm] birls [stopbysayhi] So I've been with Keri for almost a year now and I love her with all of my heart. She is the best person I have ever met, and even though I've made mistakes she has stood by me and she knows I will always stand by her. When she first told me she was diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder when she was 18 I wasn't really surprised. She told me that because of her family and the way her life is that she would never transition, but then one day she sidelined me telling me she was really serious about transitioning. I was really upset at first, scared she would change when she started taking testosterone but I'm at a point where I am very supportive and I've let go of the selfish part of me that wanted her to stay how she is. I want her to be happy because I don't want to marry her and then when she's 55 being miserable because she never lived life how she wanted and then for things to become bad between us. I want her to live her life to its full potential, and I want to be there with her through it all. Today she got her prescription for testosterone!!! We're both so excited. She gets her first injection on Tuesday, and I'm going with her. But even though I am feel that inside she is a male, there is still one problem. I feel like I will never be able to use male pronouns when I talk about her just because I've known her as a girl. She says she honestly doesn't care and that she wants to just be seen as how she feels on the inside, but I know that it would be hard for her to hear me calling her a girl all the time when really she is not. So my questions to any transguys, or girlfriends of transguys or even ex girlfriends who dated their significant other before they transitioned are: Did you find it hard to start to use male pronouns? Did you find it easier once you started to see the changes for yourself? If your significant other was close with your parents before the transition, how did you explain to your parents? What are some things I can do or say to help make this easier for Keri, considering her family isn't very open to the idea of Keri transitioning? Just for fun here are some pictures! ( me and keri! ) 69  :   post comment

new beginnings and new hair [Dec, 15th 2:28pm] birls [0hseptember] So I had the most wonderful night last night! I came out to my bestie in the whole wide Washington state as trans, and he was wonderfully accepting... thus far the most accepting person I've come out to in my family/friends. also, I shaved the sides of my head... I'm not sure how much I like it myself Maybe I'll like it more when It grows out? 11  :   post comment

Hey! [Dec, 16th 3:20pm] birls [summerxstarry] Just checking in, my finals week is almost over and I need a break! I'm newly single, and I'm so bored. Its like I have no idea what to do with myself anymore. Blah. So my question is- What are your holiday plans? ( So it's not only text! ) 1  :   post comment

Just plain GAY [Dec, 16th 10:55am] birls [fitxy] I find myself in a constant state of sex and gender flux, but the constant seems to be more "gay" leaning. I went through a trans period, where I shaved my head and took a man's name, but during that period, my partner was male. My hair has since grown back, and I've taken on a very, very femme identity for the first time in my life (Skirts! Heels! My God!), and this newfound femininity has me leaning towards finding a female partner. I tend to date the gender I'm "impersonating." Anyone else do this? 10  :   post comment

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